Happiness

Sadness have strikes me
I fought harder and harder
To get the happiness back
I weeps frequently
I smiles frequently
Happiness is what I want in return
Having family to support me
Gave me a happiness

Sadness have strikes me
I fought harder and harder
To get happiness back
I wore masks thousand times
I pretend and it hurt
Having friends to take off my mask
To reveal the truth out of me
Gave me a happiness

Sadness have strikes me
I fought harder and harder
To get the happiness back
My heart is shattered
I grabbed a broom to gather it together
I cries
Having someone glue my heart all together
Brought me into happiness once again.


-anonymous-

Bleach episode 18

Assalamualaikum

Salam Eiduladha. Entry yang tiada apa-apa info. Aku menaip mengikut apa yang terlintas di dalam kepala je. So, minta maaf la andai merapu. Terasa macam berserabut. Serabut apa? Banyak sangat ke benda di dalam kepala tu? Entahla...

Pagi ni bercita-cita nak study orthopaedics. Baru je baca satu page, pastu terasa bosan...huhu. Teruk kan. End upnya.. sebijik kek coklat yang moist berjaya dihasilkan. Bila nampak je adunan kek aku yang dah siap, Aini tegur ' erk, tgh bosan ke?' ye...sedikit bosan harini. Sejak bila ntah aku mendevelop hobi baru. Bila bosan tahap tak tahu nak buat apa, aku akan masuk dapur dan buat cake..huhu. Terasa pelik pulak bunyinya untuk aku.....

Lately jugak, mood aku agak tak betul. Turun naik. Agak-agak, mana silapnya erk? Kepada kawanku yang jauh di berlainan benua...ribuan kemaafan diatas perangaiku ini. Kadang-kadang tak faham jugak dengan diri sendiri. Kalau aku pun tak faham...orang lain lagi la susah nak faham kan. Kita semua dijadikan berlainan antara satu sama lain. Akan kucuba untuk menggembirakan orang2 yang aku sayang.

Lagi 2 minggu cuti akan berakhir. January ni, aku akan away ke Roscommon untuk rotation medicine. Terasa banyak lagi benda yang belum dicover. Boleh ke aku ni nak jadi Doctor?? isk3....
Aku sedar aku nak exam. Jangan terlalu risau sebab itu akan menambahkan pressure yang dah sedia ada. Kepada semua kawan-kawan or sesiapa yang menyinggah di sini....doakanlah ye..

* Tak salah menitiskan air mata andai itu dapat mengubat hati...

BERUSAHALAH!!

OCD

Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD), a type of anxiety disorder, is a potentially disabling illness that traps people in endless cycles of repetitive thoughts and behaviors. People with OCD are plagued by recurring and distressing thoughts, fears or images (obsessions) that they cannot control. The anxiety (nervousness) produced by these thoughts leads to an urgent need to perform certain rituals or routines (compulsions). The compulsive rituals are performed in an attempt to prevent the obsessive thoughts or make them go away.

Although the ritual may make the anxiety go away temporarily, the person must perform the ritual again when the obsessive thoughts return. This OCD cycle can progress to the point of taking up hours of the person's day and significantly interfering with normal activities. People with OCD may be aware that their obsessions and compulsions are senseless or unrealistic, but they cannot stop themselves.

What Are the Symptoms of Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder?

The symptoms of OCD, which are the obsessions and compulsions, may vary. Common obsessions include:

• Fear of dirt or contamination by germs.
• Fear of causing harm to another.
• Fear of making a mistake.
• Fear of being embarrassed or behaving in a socially unacceptable manner.
• Fear of thinking evil or sinful thoughts.
• Need for order, symmetry or exactness.
• Excessive doubt and the need for constant reassurance.
  

Common compulsions include:

• Repeatedly bathing, showering or washing hands.
• Refusing to shake hands or touch doorknobs.
• Repeatedly checking things, such as locks or stoves.
• Constant counting, mentally or aloud, while performing routine tasks.
• Constantly arranging things in a certain way.
• Eating foods in a specific order.
• Being stuck on words, images or thoughts, usually disturbing, that won't go away and can interfere with sleep.
• Repeating specific words, phrases or prayers.
• Needing to perform tasks a certain number of times.
• Collecting or hoarding items with no apparent value.

To Husna (if you read this),

To be diagnosed with Obsessive-compulsive disorder, one must have either obsessions or compulsions alone, or obsessions and compulsions, according to the DSM-IV-TR diagnostic criteria...

** So, sila la bukak balik buku Psych utk check criteria tuh..kekeke. Ye, aku ada OCD sket...tapi arranging things in certain way je.....takdela constant..kan kan..heheh. Susun cheese tu...seriusly unintentionally, luar kawalan tuhh... =)

Day by day

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

It feels like ages since the last time I'm here. Nothing much to write or to say. Life is good, alhamdulillah. Smiling, enjoying all the things that I've learn although tears keep coming down...

" Why do people cry? Recent evidence suggests that the tears produced by emotional crying may be a way that the body disposes of toxic substances. It may seem strange to think of crying as beneficial, yet many people say that "a good cry" makes them feel better" - some quote that I found in one of the article about psychology. Erm, I think so...

Right now I'm reading a book entitled 'You can be the happiest woman in the world, a treasure chest of reminders', written by Dr. A' id al-Qarni. I enjoyed reading this book because it gives the kind of motivation that I need. Thanks Zai for this book, I really like it =)

After hardship, Allah will soon grant relief.

You are dealing with a Lord Who is Most Kind and Most Generous. Remember that you have to seek reward with Allah swt. If some worry, distress or grief befalls you, remember that it is an expiation for sin. Take what comes to you and give thanks. Count the blessing that Allah has bestowed upon you. This is all the words that really motivate the souls.

When morning comes, remember that the sun is shining upon thousands of miserable woman but you are blessed. How many tears flow down women's cheeks, but you are smiling and happy. So praise Allah, the Exalted, for His kindness, protection and generosity.

Sit and think, and be honest with yourself; look at the numbers and statistics. How many things do you own, how much wealth do you possess, how many blessing do you enjoy, how many things do you have that bring you delight? Beauty, wealth, shade, a home, a country, light, air, water, nourishment, medicine, love? Rejoice and be a good cheer

Praise be to Allah Who has taken away my grief. Although tears keep coming...just be strong and lead the way, insya Allah.